Some time ago I hated my body. I did not look at myself because it seemed terrible to me with my thin and lifeless feet, these atrophied muscles, the abdomen which also lacked the muscle fibre by being completely paralyzed from the chest down, and as I am sitting in my wheelchair most of the time I show that I have some belly, even if it does not exist …
I do not have those beautiful shapes that i had years ago, my long and beautiful legs now no longer so well-formed.
I am 1.70cm tall, I had / I have a thin waist, breasts size as much as could be liked, I was / I am an attractive woman, and why should I say no to nudity? I do not go out on the street without clothes on, but a picture of me dressed only with a sexy lingerie, I say with certainty, YES.
In these photographers you will never see vulgarity – I never liked vulgarity of any kind: spoken, gestural, but I love to expose myself as much as I need to show the beauty of women. I want to show the shapes I still have, I want you to see that beauty exists beyond a wheelchair.
I’m a strong woman and I’m not getting back to nothing. If I need to dig up my sleeves and go to work I do it without thinking. I am an athlete, a hand cyclist, whether if it is hot or cold outside, could be sweaty, dusty and miserable when I’m in my bike, but that’s my passion, I love it and doesn’t matter if it’s hard. So, who says that a cyclist can not be a model? I can get off the bike, take a shower and pass in front of the camera. What’s the problem?
I am a mother. Now you ask what my son will say when he sees these photos. To my joy, my 16-year-old son is an “OPEN minded” person, and when I had this proposal, I asked him what he thinks about a shooting like this, he answered me clearly: “why don’t you do it?” .. “ but mommy, those photos will be published on social networks “- I try to make him understand the “weight” of this action of mine. Then he tells me: “ well, do you think I’m staying here to watch your pictures? “ – The only opinion that matters to me at the moment is his. I know that others people who love me understand my actions even though they probably do not agree with everything I do, but it is important that they all support me for which I thank them.
Some years ago I was always worried about what people around me say about me, about those people who talk and talk, but rarely talk about their things, because they have nothing to say, and always about the things of others, comments about the actions of those people who always struggle to achieve their goals and do not complain of mercy. Yes, then I was interested in the opinion of those people, but now I understand that those who judge me do it because inside of them there is a volcano of envy that constantly erupts. Those people from whom the only thing you can learn is: never be like them!
I do not write these words for them, nor justify in some way these pictures that seem wonderful to me, but do so to share a thought with you, to try to tell you that it is worth doing is what it makes you happy and not others, do not listen to the voice of the world, because it does not lead you to a good way, but your intuition.
Since I have freed myself from these thoughts I can say that I feel much better and now I try to do what I like; to smile, to love, to live ..
This life is so short that you do not even have time to figure out when time has gone, so all that matters is to enjoy the moment, to laugh until the tears fall into your beard.
We all have a journey to make: some are shorter than others, but this journey has a destination for us all, why not try to make it as beautiful as possible?
In my journey they were all; tears of happiness, and tears of pain never missed. That hurtful suffering that brought me tears that burned my cheeks when they were not flowing anymore. I suffered much pain in my life, but that was part of my journey that taught me to become strong, I just chose the way I go from here in I want to build it the way I want for me. I’m not saying I will not have any troubles, but at least now I know how to face them and I will not let anyone else hurt me. I think by this age I have already seen so much that I do not thank any more.
Talking about the main subject of this article; the photos, I can tell you that I have no regrets, and I’m really happy to have overcome that barrier, and now I’m happy with my body, I’m happy with myself as I am.
Enjoy life and do what you love! See y’all!
Location : PhotoStudioGT Milan
Date : 17.11.2018
Roxana Dobrica – iuliabarton.com model